Chapter 292 Xiao Jiuhua's Dependence
Recently, Jiuhuayue basically spent the entire week alone at home.

Yang Kui Chitose went to her hot spring shop, Xinchun was preparing for her New Year ceremony, and as for the uncle
It seemed that the Matsumae family invited him to see something, and he would be away for a week.

How come I work so hard overtime only to end up staying at home alone?
Jiu Huayue was lying alone on a shark pillow in the living room, staring at the flickering movie images on the TV.

bored
bored
Only boredom
Jiuhuayue sighed, stood up, walked to Fujii Itsuki's room on the first floor, took out the key he gave her, and slowly pushed the door open.

Even though she was already familiar with the smell in his room, Jiu Huayue always felt it was deserted and like something was missing when she didn't see him busy working at the desk.

"Do you miss him that much?"

Jiu Huayue lowered her head and muttered something, then moved closer to his mattress, stretched out her hand, and touched the edge of the bed to the end of the bed.

Even she herself didn't know why she did this, but it seemed that by doing this, his aura became stronger.
Usually when they were together, Jiu Huayue liked to lean on him, because of his slightly higher body temperature, calm and refreshing scent, and because he would always patiently explain the topic or allusions to her in a knowledgeable and steady voice, or play a song for her alone.

The uncle never gets angry.
Once she thought about the fact that these people were not around, Jiuhuayue felt lonely and uncomfortable.

She opened the window, held her cheeks with her hands, and looked at the big iron gate covered with snow.

The lock on the iron gate, the snow on the iron gate, and the shovel used to shovel snow next to the iron gate, every thing is so clear in his eyes, but the clearer it is, the more lonely Jiuhuayue feels.

".Why don't you come back?"

Jiuhuayue's face was deflated like a ball. She picked up the snow piled by the window, slowly rolled it into small snowballs, and built two little snowmen, one big and one small, holding hands in front of her.

After she finished piling it, she stared at it and couldn't help laughing at herself.

Jiuhuayue, Jiuhuayue, you weren't like this before, right?

In the past, you were so strong that you traveled all the way from Tokyo to Otaru, went to school alone, cooked alone, and cleaned the house alone. You never showed this kind of state.

I had obviously gotten used to being alone, but now everything is back to normal.

Jiuhuayue sighed deeply for herself, turned around and walked towards Fujii Itsuki's bed.

The girl leaned against the wall, hugged her legs, and stared lonely at the two little people holding hands by the window.

Listening to the sound of snow and wind outside, her memory was swaying, and this feeling reminded Jiuhuayue of her past self.

It seems like I have always been like this in the past, right?

Ever since the family moved from Otaru to Tokyo, her father, who used to smile at her often, no longer smiles at her, and her mother, who used to be extremely tolerant and caring towards her, now has a deeper and heavier strange color in her eyes.

My parents often say to me: Xiaoyue, you are hope, you have to work hard.

Yes, work hard.

When I was a child, I worked very hard to meet my parents' expectations.

But every time the response I get is “not enough, not enough, and still not enough.”

Once, he finally passed the exam and was admitted as a trainee at the Takarazuka Conservatory of Music, but he failed because of someone who cut in line at the last minute, which was the time when the school gave up the position to Kokoharu.

After returning home, my father was no longer in his usual state. His face was full of anger due to dissatisfaction. He pointed at his head and cursed himself for being useless.

Even though the father knew that it was not his fault but the more powerful Matsumae family's cutting in line caused it.
As for what happened afterwards, things got even funnier.

The school simply misunderstood. The eldest daughter of the Matsumae family had never considered coming to Takarazuka.

But what's the use of this?
Once you are eliminated, you are eliminated.

If you are eliminated, either give up or try again next year.

And it was during this year that Jiu Huayue felt more and more disappointed in her father's eyes. Under the influence of her father, her mother mostly turned a blind eye to her inner feelings, and more or less adopted an evasive attitude because of guilt. She just kept telling her, "You have to work hard. The family is counting on you, Xiaoyue."

It was not until Jiuhuayue was admitted to Takarazuka and started her internship for a year that she finally understood.

What my family meant by relying on myself was not that I wanted to carve out a place for myself in Takarazuka by relying on my own strength and fame.

The parents simply entered the Takarazuka so that more people could see them.

The so-called relying on oneself is nothing more than relying on one's own appearance and the talents that one has cultivated over many years to flatter powerful people.

In my father's view, even if someone who is 50 or 60 years older than him marries him, it doesn't matter at all, right?

As long as I become his wife, I can help him.
It was also in this year that Jiuhuayue felt disheartened for the first time.

For the first time, I felt that I was not loved by my family.

Whenever she saw her so-called father afterwards, she only felt nausea rising from her stomach to her throat.

So she ran away, back to Otaru, where she had lived as a child.

It's been a long time.

When my parents came after me, I actually still had some expectations for them, and felt that there was still a little hope for this "home".

Jiu Huayue now wants to question herself, why didn't she help the uncle in the first place? Why after being slapped by her father, she could only hide behind and watch him help her?

Is it because I was rejected repeatedly by the uncle and can’t find a sense of belonging?

I feel that if I completely cut off the relationship with my "family" and my uncle doesn't choose to accept me, then I will have no place to stand in this world.
After all, my heart is still very weak.
When she thought of this, Jiu Huayue gave herself a rather sarcastic smile, and felt a little disappointed in herself from the bottom of her heart.
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Jiuhuayue seemed to smell a familiar scent, and there was a hint of warmth where her head was resting.

"Why don't you close the window when you take a nap? Aren't you afraid of catching a cold?"

Jiu Huayue opened her eyes dazedly and found herself leaning in Fujii Itsuki's arms. The girl slowly looked up, and the moment she saw his face, Jiu Huayue pulled up the collar of his shirt with both hands.

The girl was a little sad and a little angry as she muttered in his arms:
"Why did you come back so early today?"

"It's over. I just followed Xinchun's father to visit the Matsumae family's property. Didn't we say it would take a week?"

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Seeing that the girl in his arms was silent, Fujii Itsuki sensed a hint of her emotion.

"I've been coming home late these past few days. Are you angry because I didn't spend time with you?"

".You still know this."

She complained but hugged him tighter.

"Then I apologize to you. I'm very sorry, Xiaoyue."

In order to make her look more reassured, Fujii Itsuki took the initiative to pat her slender back. Noticing that she was about to cry in his arms, he hurriedly asked her, "Did you have a nightmare when you were sleeping just now?"

"That's right"

"How about telling me about it?"

"Actually, it wasn't a nightmare. I just dreamt about my past relationship with my parents."

"That's definitely not a good thing, don't think about it." Fujii Itsuki glanced at the two snowmen piled up by the window, "Speaking of which, Xiaoyue, why did you come to my room to take a nap? Did you miss me?"

"Humph"

Because she was curled so tightly in the other's arms, the intention was very obvious, so Jiu Huayue blushed and had no idea of ​​explaining, nor did she have any intention of refutation. She just snorted to express her slight dissatisfaction at being guessed.

Fujii Itsuki laughed and said, "Before, you ignored me and went to work, and you laughed at me for missing you. Now it's the other way around, right?"

"Humph"

"Stop humming. It's not cute if you hum again."

"Then I just missed you." "That's right."

In order to make her happy, Fujii Itsuki lifted her up a little and rubbed her face against his for a while.

Although the girl resisted a little and said that he had a shaggy beard, she couldn't hide her happiness. She just felt that leaning on him, in his arms, listening to his heartbeat, she would feel very, very at ease.
"How about I shave you?"

"Hmm? Okay then."

Jiu Huayue quickly got out of bed and found a razor and shaving cream from his drawer. She sat down on the bed like a duck and shaved his face clean bit by bit.

Fujii Itsuki noticed that Jiuhuayue's eyes were extremely serious at this time. The way she looked at him was as if she treated him like a treasure.

"Xiaoyue, is there anything you want to tell me?"

"Ok?"

"You said you were dreaming just now, right? It shouldn't be a good thing."

"."

"Is it better if I don't ask?"

"No!" Jiu Huayue put down the razor and explained to him, lowering her head, "At least I look down on myself a little bit."

Fujii Itsuki already knew about Jiuhuayue's past and what her parents had done to her.

So after Jiu Huayue told her what she cared about, I understood why she thought so.

In fact, the root cause lies in the fact that Jiuhuayue lacks a sense of security.

Fujii Itsuki laughed and said, "How can you care about such things?"

Jiu Huayue felt that he was laughing at her. "But isn't that the truth? Uncle, you fought with that bastard for me, but I didn't take the initiative to help you. Isn't that just being weak?"

"Different."

".What's the difference?"

"What was our relationship then?"

"Relationship. We should consider it as friends, right?"

"I rejected you many times back then, and your confession, Xiaoyue, was actually due to a special reason. I felt insecure under that premise." Fujii Itsuki organized his words and tried his best to explain. Of course, it didn't seem so perfect.

Jiu Huayue naturally understood and pouted, "Uncle, you are looking for a reason to comfort me, right?"

Fujii Itsuki smiled, and then the girl hit him lightly on the chest.

"I knew it, but this is actually good enough."

"Ah."

"I am very grateful in my heart that you take care of me like this."

"Ah."

"So. So."

"Ah."

"You! You are so annoying! You don't even listen to me carefully."

Jiuhuayue couldn't hide her embarrassment and hit him. Seeing her look at that moment, Fujii Itsuki turned his head to the other side and laughed secretly.

"You did it on purpose, didn't you?"

"I just want to cheer you up. How about it? Do you feel better after hitting me?"

Fujii Itsuki cleared his throat and said seriously: "Besides, I don't think there is anything wrong with a person having weaknesses. Xiaoyue, you have a strong personality, but you must have corresponding shortcomings. No one is perfect. Even Superman would be afraid of kryptonite, right?"

He took Jiuhuayue's little hand.

"Also, I'm very grateful that you can tell me about your weakest point. Think about it, no one would tell an unimportant person about their weaknesses, right? I'm very happy that you think I'm very, very important."

Fujii Itsuki laughed.

"Most importantly, since you and I are already in this relationship now, Xiaoyue, I will of course accept your weakness."

His words made Jiuhuayue blush and her heart beat faster.

It's very strange, it's just a few ordinary words.
But myself.
I would still be happy that he chose to accept this side of me.

Jiu Huayue was happy from the bottom of her heart that he could say this
"That"

"What then?"

Then from now on, if I have anything on my mind, I will come to you and you will comfort me.
Such words were really embarrassing for Jiu Huayue.

It's actually nothing to say, but Jiuhuayue's personality is like this. She has weaknesses, but more importantly, she wants to be strong and needs a little face.

And she felt that was she asking too much of Fujii Itsuki?
I always need him to comfort me.

Then when can I take care of him?

Fujii Itsuki: "Hmm, what are you thinking about?"

".Uncle, do you think I am a little too greedy?"

"Which point?"

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Jiu Huayue hesitated for a long time, her face turned red, and finally she encouraged herself a little in her heart and said it to him:

"That's right. Just now I was thinking, when I'm unhappy, can I come to you? Because of this, I feel that I haven't given you anything, so I feel that I'm very greedy. And you promised me in the beginning, and I took the initiative to do those things, right? I feel that I'm still very greedy."

Fujii Itsuki couldn't hold back the smile on his face again, he took her little hand, leaned against her head and said:

"I think I'm too greedy, so I ask you to be tolerant. And don't forget, Xiaoyue, I'm 10 years older than you."

"Your age is not a problem for me at all!"

"Then your little thoughts are not a problem for me at all. Just come to me when you are sad."

".Then.Then.How about I act cute with you every day?"

"You haven't yet? You have to stick to me every day when I'm around."

"What about now?"

Fujii Tree opened his hands, pretending to be generous and willing to let her do whatever she wanted. Jiuhua Yue lowered her eyebrows and smiled softly, secretly glanced at him, muttered "Then I won't be polite", and pounced on him, threw him on the bed, and covered him with a quilt.

After a while of commotion, Jiuhuayue poked her head out of the quilt, her pretty cheeks already flushed.

Fujii Itsuki looked at her from below with a smile and asked:
"Do you want me to be gentle or rough this time?"

"Then be gentler"

Fujii Tree and Jiuhua Yue looked at each other, and after seeing the girl blush and then smile, they supported her shoulders and gently pushed her to the side, then turned around and pressed her over. They pulled up the quilt and let the wind and snow howl outside the window.
(End of this chapter)